I got laid more when I wasn’t in a relationship than I do now. I know sex isn’t everything but to me it’s important and without it, I feel like there’s something significant missing. It’s almost as if I just live with a close friend instead of my boyfriend. I miss passion and I miss feeling wanted. Is it worth ending things? I’ve been debating for weeks and I’m not sure what to do or how I would rebuild my life after it.
haven’t been on here in a while
but i feel the need to expell my thoughts somewhere other than inside my mind right now. I almost feel as if I’m not that important, like I’m being put on a shelf by the one person who’s supposed to be the most excited for my existence (and the feeling is mutual). But I feel like I deserve more excitement, happines, and dedication (am I asking for a lot?), not all the time, not every day, but it should be felt sometime. I’m not getting this anymore, and I’m scared of what might become of it. Will I adjust and settle, or rise to recognize my real worth is equal to so much more than what I receive?
Sometimes I wonder if my need for this kind of attention stems from a lack thereof from my dad. But sometimes I wonder if I’m just settling because I’m afraid to lose something that is still better than having nothing. Is it me, or is something wrong?
